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I have always felt like a refugee or political exile forced to live abroad away from a country that does not accept me one hundred per cent and treats me like a second class citizen. DOMA and its discriminatory, homophobic effects were something Dani and I have chosen to block out because we have traditionally been based in Europe, where we are free to live the way we choose. It’s hard to verbalize the sting of these feelings, especially when we know so many heterosexual bi-national couples who are able to settle in the U.S. almost effortlessly. Luckily, Ligeia and her Canadian partner Mindy of BoundingOverOurSteps.com offered to write a guest post about how the fall of DOMA has affected their relationship and their future – and we ‘bounded’ at the chance to have them tell their story!
The fabric of the United States of America is stitched together with the notions of freedom for all and that all citizens have the right to life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. Except for same-sex couples. Looking back over my life this past decade, I can personally testify that the federal government took away my freedom to pursue a life of happiness at home.
On September 16, 2006, I married Mindy, my soul mate. For the wedding we chose Niagara Falls, a natural wonder of the world as bi-national as we are. Mindy’s country, Canada, had already been issuing same-sex marriages for a few years, and I was ashamed and angry that my own country was so far behind the times.
The U.S. government wasn’t simply lacking legislative progress in terms of marriage equality, it was actively and unconstitutionally discriminating against lesbian and gay couples. The Defense of Marriage Act (DOMA), signed into law by Bill Clinton in 1996, blanketed the entire country with a strict definition of marriage being between one man and one woman. In doing so, the United States downgraded my relationship with Mindy to “just friends”.
This meant I couldn’t sponsor her as my spouse for immigration. It meant being told blatantly to my face by a U.S. Border and Customs Agent in Miami that the federal government doesn’t recognize my marriage, in America Mindy and I are not family. Mindy would have to fill out her own customs form – as a tourist – despite the fact that Canada and the U.S. have a long-standing agreement to immediately recognize marriages performed across the border.
The rule applied only to heterosexual couples in the U.S. even though just steps across the border, we were recognized in Canada.
Each time we filled out those separate customs forms (which as avid travelers we did a lot!), anger, frustration and sadness started to seep in and I found myself, at times, losing the battle against the manifestation of bitterness.
Although we investigated immigration options for Mindy, she wasn’t able to live permanently in the United States. The ironically named Defense of Marriage Act forced me to choose between living without my wife in my home country, or taking my marriage and living in exile outside of it. Obviously, I chose Mindy and we made a home in Canada.
We lived in Toronto for five years. Even though I loved living in a city with a thriving lesbian community and in a country where I felt supported by the government, I often felt the sting of anti-Americanism. The generalized insults towards Americans constantly told me I was fatter, dumber and more obnoxious and arrogant than the average Canadian. It got to the point where I was hesitant to even leave the apartment, making it clear that Canada could not be our home.
With each day that passed, that anger, frustration and sadness within me grew stronger, as DOMA continued to prevent me from moving back home. I wish I could have simply moved to Massachusetts or one of the other of states that were then performing same-sex marriages. But, immigration is a federal right and the Defense of Marriage Act superseded individual state law, even if same-sex couples, both American, could get married there.
The fight for marriage equality for same-sex couples is often equated to the fight interracial couples had to fight half a century ago, so let’s put our struggle into context. Interracial couples who were both American had the right to marry in certain states (until 1967 when Mississippi became the last and final state to allow interracial marriage), but would a white American man who married a black Canadian woman be unable to bring his new bride to the United States to live? Immigration was not the hot-button issue it is today, but this exact issue is what thousands of bi-national same-sex couples, like us and Dani and Jess, too – have experienced – until the U.S. Supreme Court rules that DOMA was unconstitutional this past month and repealed it.
Today, with tears in my eyes, I can finally say that my country recognizes my marriage. Over a thousand federal rights and responsibilities are now available to me, including sponsoring Mindy for immigration, filing joint income tax returns with her and making her my beneficiary for Social Security benefits, to name a few.
So, the question we’re asking ourselves now is “Where do we go from here?” Of course, as soon as we heard the news of the Supreme Court decision, we questioned whether to start Mindy’s green card application. Do we uproot our entire lives, ones that we were forced to create, just because DOMA has been repealed?
Just over a year ago, we moved to Chiang Mai, Thailand and made it home for the foreseeable (short-term) future. I love my job teaching English to university students, and Mindy is certainly making a difference working to improve the lives of Asian elephants.
We also absolutely love to travel, and having a base in Thailand is allowing us to visit amazing countries in the region. Our goal is to visit every country in the world, immersing ourselves in the different languages and cultures, and investigating the tasty, vegan options each cuisine offers.
I don’t know where we’ll live next. But with the repeal of DOMA, it’s a wondrous comfort to know that when we’re ready to settle down and move permanently to the United States to open up a Bed and Breakfast in Vermont, no law or policy will tell us we can’t.
Thankfully, the bitterness eating away at me for almost 8 years has started to dissipate. The sting of discrimination is happily becoming a memory. I no longer feel forced to live in exile.
Ligeia, a US-American, and Mindy, a Canadian are a traveling duo currently calling Chiang Mai, Thailand home. Both vegan, Ligeia is an ESL language instructor and Mindy works in freelance web design, both professions allowing for a nomadic life. Follow their journey at BoundingOverOurSteps.com, or on Facebook and Twitter.
Are you a bi-national same-sex couple? How do issues like marriage equality and immigration policy affect your lives together?
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Monday 19th of August 2013
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Wednesday 31st of July 2013
What a wonderful post! I am so sorry that you have had to battle with this for so many years. The US is sadly not the only country that doesn't recognize same sex marriages. What century do we live in again? I am glad the US finally changed legislation. Good luck to you two lovely ladies! :-)
Saturday 17th of August 2013
Thanks Tammy! It's amazing to think that in several decades time no one will even bat an eye at same-sex marriage, much like bi-racial marriages today. The fall of this legislation is monumental in moving towards normalizing same-sex marriage. :)
Ligeia and Mindy
Thursday 25th of July 2013
Hi Maria, Congrats on your engagement! Nothing better than finding your soulmate. :) Regarding Queen Elizabeth - how awesome is that!? If you get compared to Chris Christie and you don't come out looking good, there is something wrong. But what a classy, old lady way to insult someone! Well done Elizabeth! Congrats again on finding Mrs. Right! :) Ligeia :)
Wednesday 24th of July 2013
Very happy for you. For all of us. My girlfriend (or should I say, fiancee), can't wait for me to meet her in CA to get married. In the meantime, we are going to be going crazy in Amsterday for Gay Pride.
The push for equality is never over. But I'm always happy to hear the good news, and totally tickled when more support flows our way.
RE: England and Wales - Consider this gem from the Queen of England.
“I don’t like to badmouth people,” she said. “But I’m the head of a monarchy that began in the ninth century, and I’m apparently more modern than Chris Christie... he’s not as forward-thinking as an eighty-seven-year-old lady who wears a crown on her head. It’s pathetic.
Rock on, Elizabeth!
Monday 22nd of July 2013
Amazing post, amazing story, amazing moment in history!
When I opened this post I was thinking how familiar Mindy looked, and then when I got to the elephant bit it all clicked -- I met her at ENP in Chiang Mai! What a small world.
Ligeia and Mindy
Tuesday 23rd of July 2013
What a small world indeed! And we agree that it is truly an amazing moment in history, one that will spread like a wildfire so that all same-sex couples can get married (should they choose to) anywhere in the world! Hope you get back to Chiang Mai (and ENP) sometime soon! :) Ligeia :)
Ligeia and Mindy
Tuesday 23rd of July 2013
What a small world indeed! And we agree that it is truly an amazing moment in history, one that will spread like a wildfire so that all same-sex couples can get married (should they chose to) anywhere in the world! Hope you get back to Chiang Mai (and ENP) sometime soon! :) Ligeia :)