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Guest post: The power of being out as a gay traveler in South America

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In the latest installment of our Lesbian & Gay Travel series, Sam of IndefiniteAdventure.com shares why he thinks it is so powerful to be out as a gay traveler, especially in South America, where many countries are still rather conservative when it comes to same-sex relationships.

When my partner Zab and I started traveling, I knew there would be plenty of lessons to learn and experiences that would change me. That’s much of the point of travel. What I didn’t realize was how much traveling in South America would reveal to me about my own feelings toward what it means to be gay.

I knew I was gay by the age of thirteen, and was out to my friends immediately. My family found out officially a few years later, but none were surprised. My mother told me she had known since I was three.

I’ve never been closeted, though there have been times in the past when I shied away from identifying myself with the gay crowd. Growing up in London in the late 1990s, no one even flinched at being told.

Sam and Zab in Bariloche Argentina
Sam and Zab in Bariloche Argentina

There was not one moment in my past when I was ever rejected or made to feel less worthy by anyone I loved or cared about because of my sexual orientation. Of course, there were the assholes at school who would proclaim “backs to the walls, guys, here comes the gay boy!” I just always found them easy to ignore.

Some might say I was lucky, but to me this was the default: acceptance was normal.

My acceptance of myself, on the inside, that was actually more difficult. It was hard to accept that this is who I was, and that being gay should be a source of pride or something to celebrate.

That was 15 years ago, however, and whatever internalized homophobia I may have had is long gone. I’m here, I’m queer: get used to it!  This was tested and confirmed again, in part, by my experiences of traveling 10 months in South America recently with my partner, Zab.

Throughout our travels, we met several gay men who were surprised that Zab and I are so open about our relationship. The fact that we’d walk into a hotel and not flinch at correcting the receptionist when she booked us a twin room that, no, actually, we wanted a double room – one bed.

Even more, they were surprised that we spend Christmas with each other’s families who all understand the true nature of our relationship, and that our mothers are even friends.

These facts were seemingly worthy of awe-struck disbelief. So many times we heard “that could never happen in my country.” This made me so sad.

Sam and Zab in Quito
Sam and Zab in Quito, Ecuador

One particular conversation that has stuck with me went something like this:

“Does your family know you’re gay?” I asked Juan, a friend we met through a couchsurfing host in Peru.

“My mother yes, but no one else. I won’t tell my grandfather, because I respect him too much and wouldn’t want him to be ashamed of me.”

“Why would he be ashamed of you?” I asked.

“You don’t understand…” Juan replied uncomfortably. “People in Peru, they are not so open to these ideas. If everyone found out my grandfather had a gay grandson, they would talk. He would lose a lot of respect. I’d be a source of shame for him.”

I countered that I couldn’t respect anyone who didn’t respect me based on my basic biology.

“You have to make people accept you; either that, or they run the risk of losing you,” I continued. “I’d rather have nothing to do with my grandfather if that’s how he felt. Better than lying about who you are.”

“You don’t understand…” he continued.

Maybe I was missing an essential, culturally specific nugget of information in that exchange, but I think I understood pretty well.

Juan was basically telling me that he didn’t want to be out to his family because he was afraid of being rejected because of his sexuality. He sees staying closeted as a sign of respect for his family.

I see him being a victim of bigotry, pure and simple.

Sam and Zab in Bolivia
Sam and Zab in Bolivia

It is no more acceptable to discriminate against someone for their sexual orientation than their race. The worst part is that, for the LGBT community, the people closest to us are the ones getting away with bigotry if they don’t respect us.

Unfortunately, this was the case time and time again with most of the gay people we met in South America: they felt trapped in the closet by their culture and allowed this bigotry to continue around them by staying inside rather than coming out and demanding acceptance.

Maybe my ‘luck’ was having been born into a time and a place where thousands before me had already rallied and fought against discrimination and in favor of equality.

I never had to fight for that where I am from, and this made me want to do something here, where I could actually make a difference.

But short of lecturing people on why they should be out, what could I do here? As a traveler, I just pass through places – how would I have time to join local activism groups or take part in political demonstrations. As a foreigner, an outsider, would I even be taken seriously?

And never mind the logistical nightmares of trying to join a new group in every town I spent time in!

In the end, I decided the best course of action was simply to be myself, and that my sphere of influence would probably have to be limited to just the people I met directly, for now.

Sam and ZabBeing an unapologetically out gay man and open about my loving relationship with Zab, I could serve as an example both to gay men that yes, it is possible to be out, happy and in love, as well as to the wider public to show that this is what an out couple looks like – and we’re not much different to you!

There is no way to quantify how much this helped some of the gay friends we made in South America, to show them what is possible for them and their country’s near future. In Peru, things are certainly changing and attitudes are becoming more accepting. In 2010, 21% of Peruvians polled approved of same-sex marriage [source]; in three years, it’s jumped to 64% [source]. Whereas a decade ago, our being ‘out’ may not have had much of an effect, perhaps today, in a more open environment, our example was able to make more of a mark in the minds of the relative few people we met.

At the very least, the ten months in South America made me realize that it should not feel like a privilege to be accepted or not to be discriminated against. That in turn has strengthened my resolve to always be out – nothing can erase someone’s homophobia (whether that be external, like Juan’s grandfather or internally, like with Juan himself) more quickly or easily than by discovering that someone they know, love or respect is gay and unashamed of that fact.

I hope that this form of action – pride – helps to make a difference.

Sam and Zab at Lake Titicaca
Sam and Zab at Lake Titicaca

Bio: Sam is a sometimes-EFL teacher, wannabe-minimalist, language geek who is trying to make it as a digital nomad with his partner, Zab. They’ve been together for over eight years now, and travelling indefinitely for one. You can follow them on their blog Indefinite Adventure where they chronicle their journey, write about the places they visit, the food they eat (preferably vegetarian, organic and locally produced) and the people they meet. They are also on Facebook, Twitter and Foursquare.

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26 Comments

  1. It’s a tough one Sam on what to do. I think like many other aspects of these countries (their economy etc.) things will progress and improve over time. I think you have it spot on by just being you, it’s all any of us can do, gay or straight.

  2. I spent my summer in Indonesia and along the way I met quite a few gay guys, almost all of whom were closeted. Indonesia, like most Asian cultures, is an environment where kids stay with their parents until they get married, then the couple moves in with the wife’s family. This system poses a bit of a problem on coming out, which only one of the many many people I met along the way had escaped from (he lived with his brother, who was also gay, and was actually out). But when I’d ask guys about the future, what I heard was very sad. “Well, I guess I’ll just stop being gay and get married to a woman.”

    This notion that it’s somehow possible to “stop being gay” to satisfy cultural norms is a reminder of just how fortunate we are to have grown up in societies that are, compared to much of the world, acceptable of homosexuality.

  3. Thank you so much for this post! My partner and I will be traveling to Croatia this summer, and there has been a lot of tumult on the subject of LGBT rights there as of late. We’re a bit nervous about the trip, especially considering recent events, but excited for the opportunity to represent the LGBT traveling community.
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  4. Thanks to Sam for sharing his story, and to Jess and Dani for hosting the article! It’s such a lovely story to read and reminded me of my friend who’s Colombian and living in Australia. Her cousin, also Colombian and living in another part of Australia, is gay and back then she was living with a girlfriend but no one else in the family knew because of the prejudices back home. They eventually decided to move to Canada and marry there, and she broke the news to the family at the same time we were in Colombia, visiting. In the end her mother came around to it and her brother was completely supportive and we were so happy for her and thought it was fantastic!
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  5. Thanks Sam, great article. I recently wrote on this exact same topic for a gay travel magazine. I completely agree with you that there is a lot of value for the communities we visit in traveling openly as ourselves. Thanks again 🙂

  6. Hi Sam,

    Great story.. I have a dear friend who just “open” up to me. A bit shocking as I never see it coming, but I’m glad she say it to me first. Coming from Asia where Gay still seen as taboo is not easy for her. I showed her this article to her, and she love it. I cant wait for her to be more open and just be whatever she want to be.

  7. Ok, I get your point, I’m out and proud and everyone knows and loves and accepts me for it. I am too, and I am quite happy to be that way. But to project your reality on a population that has not yet had the social liberation that *some* parts of Europe and North America have already experienced demonstrates you’ve left your “western” blinders on.

    That being said, Latin American, which I have visited several times, is definitely on the fast track to progress. The family entity is truly different there than in other places and for someone to not want to tell their grandparents about their sexuality is neither something you should regard as wrong, or bigoted, as I truly believe it’s a sign of respect for their families and traditions. Changing mindsets is slow and sometimes painful, and is something we should encourage from both the sidelines and on the field, but not something we should pressure new acquaintances and friends to do, based on our own lifestyles.

    1. Thanks for your comment, Tyler. You are quite right – I clearly did have blinders on, which was a shame. I just found it very hard to deal with meeting people over and over again who were forced into the closet by their culture.

      But just so you know, I never pressurised Juan into doing anything – the conversation with him on this topic ended while my internal narrative continued.
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  8. Interesting to read about your experiences. I moved to Panama with my Panamanian bf 2.5 years ago, we’re in a relationship for 5 years now, and we still learn new things every day. We helped Panamanians to set up an LGBTI-rights foundation in Panamá and man this is though. We offer a weekly support group that’s very popular now, but i know already that our generation will not come out…. That doesn’t mean they’re unhappy but it’s just very very different.

    We can only listen and try to truly understand cultural differences….

    The encounter that struck you most, where the guy said “you do not understand”, he was right, it seems you indeed do not understand…. Heck, i don’t even fully understand sometimes! It’s probably important to step back, because ppl really feel you’re trying to show them your way, that feels oppressive. Your way is not necessarily the right way forward and it seems you are ignoring cultural differences.

    I’m happy for you feel you “showed” people an open gay relationship, but fact is that that doesn’t make much difference in personal paths. Apart from that, being a foreigner is not much of a peer comparison for most lgbti at all.

    The result of this encounter was probably that he now feels bad about himself. Family is way more important down here than you can ever ever imagine, and that’s just 1 example about deep cultural differences. We get some people from the US thst join our suport group, occassionally, and the first thing usually happens is that they drive our Latin members away because they feeel the need to tell them what’s the right way forward (the right way, co-incidentally, is always the US-way).

    If you really want to help, start a home for homeless lgbti youth that were kicked put of their houses for coming out or try to talk with politucians. Judging and “showing the right way” only makes things worse and people crawl deeper inside the closet.

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